An Experience that
revealed me certain secrets of life.
It was my
second half of teenage. I was losing control of my mind over body. The exact
reasons are not known. I could only guess that I was under slow poisoning due
to family clashes. Gradually I was finding very much difficulty even to eat or
even to drink water. They are getting struck up in throat. Even the quantity
that a normal man can eat in ten minutes, I was taking two hours with lot of
difficulty. In fact I was not eating required quantity. My father seems to have
understood something but he was unable to do anything due to family troubles,
except worrying about me. Gradually my mind was further weakened horribly. I
was unable to enjoy the company of friends. It looked as if I was dragging my
dead body, whenever I walked along the streets. I could not even able to laugh.
I lost minimum required concentration for a normal life. My soul was imprisoned
in my body unable to find expression. It was maximum trouble in the year (1957)
before I joined the College of Engineering at Anantapur. I was at home in that
year as I was not selected for M. A. Course and I did not apply for Engineering.
I only just recovered when I joined Engineering College. But I was very weak in
strength of mind. There was difficulty to move along with my classmates. I was
eating only a little quantity in the mess with lot of difficulty. After
attending the classes, I used to come to my room and lie down on my bed fully
covered with a blanket and start meditating to strengthen my mind and take it
under my control. Even in the classroom I used to sit in the last benches and
trying to look at any fixed point in my note book or text book for
concentrating and strengthening my mind. I was unable to listen to the
lectures. I felt sorry as I was not in a position to develop any friendship
with any of my classmates. I could not tell my problems to any as I know that
any looks of sympathy could fully remind my past and quickly result in my suffering
which was just under control. So much was my weakness. I can’t even imagine the
possibility of such a great failure of mind over body.
The
year before I Joined the Engineering College I clearly felt that the end of my
life was nearing. My mind was weakened beyond the ability to pray God. I find
myself unable to concentrate on prayer. My mind was thinking beyond my control.
Perhaps I was mad with tremendous suffering. One day I felt that was the last
day in my life. I felt very sorry that I could not even able to tell my parents
that I was dying. I went to bed expecting that I will not get up on the next
morning. My mind was thinking beyond my control, but with great suffering. It
is at this time some wonders happened. It looked as if my subconscious mind
reacted to the thoughts of great suffering. I have noticed some counter
thoughts entering my mind somewhere from within me occasionally. Whenever such
thoughts entered my mind, I felt a bit of momentary relief. I tried my best to
catch such thoughts. But it was a Herculean task. I could not catch them. And
suffering increased. As the suffering increased such thoughts again entered my
mind perhaps from my subconscious mind and reduced a bit of suffering. This
process continued throughout night. At last I could catch the positive
thoughts, and started repeating them with some control over my mind. Meditation
was born in me, perhaps from within me. Help came from my subconscious mind. I
have understood many things. Right thinking can save from any state of mind.
Even unknown bodily diseases can be cured by regulating thoughts. My thoughts
have slowly come under my control and recovery started. I felt improvement in
every five minutes of meditation. For full recovery it took some years as my
regular thoughts of age were blocked, but I never lost hope until I recovered fully.
Though I recovered to some extent, I could not come out of the great
disappointment I met with, as my feelings were blocked for a considerably long
period. This disappointment and the resulting thoughts produced wonders and
revealed certain natural secrets of life later in my life.
As
a result of this experience, I have seen wonders in my latter life.
On one fine morning a young lady came to
me, and asked me why I hypnotized her to marry a mad man. I was shocked to hear
it from her. I do not know anything about hypnotism. I was only interested in
astrology and once asked her date of birth. After seeing her horoscope I have
understood that she did not give her correct date of birth, as the horoscope is
controdicting her nature. But only told her that she will marry a mad man,
according to the horoscope she gave me. In a short period she actually married
a mad man. She is a nice lady. She never says lies even for a joke. She told me
I had powers of hypnotism. I have to think a lot on the subject. There should
be something true in her statement, I have to extract it. To do it I must look
into my past. Most of my early life my feelings were struck up without
expression. Though I recovered a lot by the power of meditation, a great
disappointment haunted me most of my life period. There can be some relief if I
could tell my story to someone. But telling it seemed to be impossible as
impressions of worry of the past experience over took my attempts to say it to
any. And the disappointment continued. As a result of the past experience and
the resultant latent disappointment, my feelings, once blocked for a long time
used to release at an enhanced rate occasionally. I liked her as a friend
enormously. I know that my feelings were enhanced a lot. I cannot imagine such
a purity of thought. My thoughts were extremely pure but enormous. But I can
even say they are out of my control. After reviewing her association with me I
have come to the conclusion that my feelings are of so much intensity that they
hypnotized her. What she said is correct. She never said lies even for a joke.
In the ancient times Maharishis of India
used to meditate in Himalayas and get great powers of mind. They were able to
hypnotize any by the powers of their mind. This is positive side of powers of
mind by controlling their thoughts and applying on others. Their thoughts were
under their control. In my case my thoughts were not under my control. But they
are of high intensity as explained above. There is a definite relationship
between persons through thoughts. One can govern other with high intensity
thought. Perhaps the Universe itself came out of a great thought power of God.
Even matter can be created out of thought power. Ancient Maharishis of India were capable of
creating mini matter out of thought power. There are great secrets behind
thought power.
After understanding the present situation,
most important idea entered my mind. Why should I like her? Why not others?
Whenever we fix some idea in mind, the answer comes after some time by natural
process. It is a law under creation. When we ask for, God gives it. It is
natural. The answer came at a later time.
Roughly after five years, my liking was
directed on another lady. She was also a nice lady, but extremely beautiful. I
asked her date of birth for verification. Her horoscope tallied with her
nature. She gave the correct date of birth. She is a married woman, unlike the
other. I attempted to tell her my story for relief, but I was unable to speak
about my past due to extreme disappointment. She seems to have understood me.
She asked me to give my past in writing. I was happy that she wanted to read
about my past. That would definitely give me relief to some extent. Accordingly I wrote about my experiences in a
small note book and gave it to her. She was kind enough to go through the same.
She sympathized with my past. She seems to give good company for my relaxation.
As she is a relative to me I got her good association several times for a
considerable time. Her very presence removed lot of disappointment hidden in
me. She even never cared her husband when he was against her giving me good
company. She is the lady who recovered me fully against a great disappointment
of my life in the year 1984. I am very grateful to her. From her horoscope, I have understood
that when one of my progressed planets of my horoscope crossed over one
important and favorable planets of her horoscope, this event occurred. Planets
at the time of birth act as doors and windows to the individual body house.
Whenever a progressed planet of one’s horoscope crosses one of the planets
position of the other’s horoscope an event occurs whether good or bad depending
on the nature of planets forming aspect, provided they are connected by event.
This formation of event is well known in astrology.
Two angels entered my life at the right
time. First one gave me great relief without even knowing my problems. The
second one totally brought me to normalcy after she understood my past. I
worship both of them.
conclusion
It appears
that the Universe is created by the great thought power of God as stated by
many saints and scholars.
Perhaps God
created man giving him similar mini thought power as such man can operate his
thought power to his advantage. Prayer is nothing but a kind of thought power.
We can achieve many things by regulating our thoughts. Especially the ancient
Maharishis of India are experts in meditation. Meditation is nothing but a
method of generating thought power. For generating thought power, repetition of
positive optimistic thoughts are necessary. For generation of this type of
thoughts some belief and faith are required. For that purpose religion was
introduced by the ancient saints based on their experiences. In fact God cannot
be defined. But prayer of any religion and to any religious God works beyond any
doubt, simply because it generates thought power and thought power is the operating system of mankind. There are people in some villages who worship
the statues of cocks and say that their desires are fulfilled. Their worship
also generates thought power which in turn reaches God and response comes. All
religions are equally good and equally bad in some respects. God is only one
for all human beings. Different lines of thinking created different religions
resulting in religious clashes, though all religious prayers reach the same God
with different names. Right understanding and right thinking are necessary to
avoid religious clashes. It is also quite possible God may take different
avatars at different times at different places to guide humans. Perhaps
creation of only good is not possible. Good and evil are two great equal and
opposite forces. When good is born, bad is automatically born for the sake of
equilibrium in creation.
Sky
is the language of God .
Right from the ancient times, people have
understood that there is a definite relationship between the planets of solar
system and human life. Several experiments were made to establish the same. If
two different persons were born at the same time to different parents at the
same place or at nearby place, their lives should tally to a great extent. This experiment was successful. Not only the
names of their wives, brothers and sisters, but even the names of their dogs
also tallied in some cases. In my case also astrology gave me lot of
clarifications and guidance for early improvements. Timely readings of some
books like ‘MENTAL POWERS’ by SRI A. S. Murthy also helped me a lot. One of the
most feared aspects in my horoscope is the conjunction of Saturn and Mars in
the second degree of the sign Aries. The location is the most feared degree for
the conjunction. It took place in the second house of my horoscope, which rules
finances and feelings. Both finances and feelings were terribly affected in my
life. One of the good aspects in my horoscope that saved me is the conjunction
of Sun, Venus and Jupiter in the twelfth house of my horoscope which rules the
subconscious mind. The real help entered my mind from my subconscious mind
only. From my experience I have understood that the life is the resultant of
planetary influence and the spiritual resources with which we are born. If we
can utilize spiritual resources fully, we can nullify the evil influences of
planets to a great extent and utilize the good influences of the planets to our
advantage. A saint can come out of planetary influences fully and leave his
body at will. Hence knowing the right type of astrology is useful for a normal
man. For him ‘sky is the language of God’.
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