Something hidden in me that I never told before fully.

 

      I was poisoned three times in my life time without enmity, but due to indirect enmity on others or due to personal benefits. The first poisoning is in my teenage which affected my brain and gave me almost a life long suffering up to the age of about 36 ears. This covers the period of my study in the College of Engineering. Anantapur. In my boyhood our house is the center for all friends and to go for play ground to play foot ball Hockey and other games in the nearby ground. But the effect of poisoning started breaking connection between my mind and body. I was not able to eat as signals that governed eating were frequently met with failure and the food was struck up in my throat many times causing lot of difficulty to swallow. I was taking even more than 3 hours to eat small quantity of food. This stage occurred a year before I joined in engineering. One day I felt that was the last day in my life.. But something prevented in me even to tell my parents. I was not able to talk to anybody as it was producing strain in me even to talk. Ultimately there was a struggle between life and death. Variety of thoughts entered my mind without my efforts. I observed that one variety of thought was giving momentary relief. I struggled my best to catch it.  But it was almost impossible. Struggle continued and I observed that something is forcibly preventing death in me and introducing positive thought that gave momentary relief. Ultimate struggle resulted in meditation. At last I have understood how to escape and reduce enormous suffering in me. I recovered considerably. Yet I was very weak when I entered engineering college. I was eating not even 50% of food with great care and trouble. I know that any sympathy wave can kill me by reproducing the past memories. Hence I should not tell anything of my past experience. I tried my best to appear normal though I was under heavy suffering.  Even in the classroom in my 1^st. year in the college I used to sit in the last row and practice concentration by looking at a suitable point in the book. Even in my hostel room I was covering myself with bed sheet and practicing meditation which saved me. That is the only way of my living in the college not to expose myself as will turn adverse to me. There was enormous worry yet I should not express. So occasionally I used to go out to a lonely place and used to weep loudly rolling on the ground for a considerable time. It was giving me a bit of relief temporarily and served not to expose myself fully as any sympathy wave can killme.

     Long afterwards after leaving the college I studied western astrology. I was surprised to note my experience from astrology. I have seen the conjunction of planet Saturn and planet Mars in the second degree of the sign Aries of moveable zodiac which is also at the intersection point of ecliptic and equator. This is the most feared aspect in the entire astrology. Its opposite degree is my 8^th house which rules death. All the persons who poisoned me have planets in my 8^th house exactly in opposition to Saturn- Mars conjunction of my horoscope. There is a countering influence to nullify this evil in my horoscope in the 12^th house which prevents its good effect to considerable amount. That is why I did not die though I was poisoned three times. In my early age it is not so powerful so it could not prevent suffering, but it stopped death. In the later two stages of poisoning it not only prevented death but also saved me from suffering as the good planets in the 12^th house left the 12^th house by progression.

     The effect of first poisoning was enormous. My feelings of the age were blocked considerably for a long time of about 36 years and at the end it was a blast of the blocked feelings that came out as enormous affection probably to counter the early longtime suffering. Such thing can only happen if something prevents death. In astrology there is a countering good aspect of conjunction of three good planets Sun Jupiter and Venus in the humanitarian sign Aquarius. But since they are in the 12^th house there action was restricted for considerable time. The blast my feelings was directed towards a good lady friend of mine. The intensity of my feeling was extremely high but due to insufficient knowledge I took them as normal only. As usual I asked her date of birth for my study. As seen from her horoscope it was clear that she did not gave her correct date of birth. With the intension whatever I can say it will not affect her, I told her that she will marry a mad man soon. But to my surprise she married a mad man in two months time. Few days after her marriage in the early morning when I was sleeping in the veranda she came to our house and questioned me “why did you hypnotize me to marry a mad man?” I replied that I do not know anything about hypnotism. But she did not accept it and left the place even without talking to my wife as usual. Her confidence was shocking news to me. I was forced to look back into my life for detailed study.

     Days were rolled down, but I could not find the solution I wanted. The outburst of my blocked feelings in the form of great affection still continued. This time these were directed towards another lady. She gave me her correct date of birth.  This gave me scope for the answer I am searching for. I prepared her horoscope and compared it with my horoscope. I clearly observed that one of my good progressed planets was passing on her one good planets position. It seems that the planets position at ones birth are the entry points for others feelings to enter when other’s progressed planet pass over it, depending on the nature of planets whether good or bad. So it is clear that good planets in ones horoscope tally with the good planet in another horoscope there can be good cooperation for a life time. So such good combinations are searched for in connection with marriage as marriage is a long time affair. So when there is no good combination between the two married couple it will be a life long suffering to both.

    I like to indicate a minor instance of release of my blocked feelings when I was in the engineering college 1^st year. Depending on the age my friendly feelings were blocked as I was not able to move as a friend with any of my classmates. There was a release of slight outburst of my friendly feelings towards a classmate with whom I not even talked much as with others. Only once in my life time in the engineering college I tried to play foot ball. After the play when I returned I happened to see my classmate. He told me that though he has not much acquaintance with me he is feeling enormous unbelievable feeling of friendship with me and he cannot find sufficient reasoning for it. I immediately understood that are the reflection of my own feelings but I could not understand the theory behind it at that time. He is not my roommate. Only after a long time I could understand that a good progressed planet from my horoscope passed over one of the good positions in his horoscope or vice versa.

     Throughout my life I am in the habit of scientific meditation. I use the sentence “day by day in every way I am getting better and better”. I am of the opinion that our thoughts are directly connected to certain central force in nature may be called as God. If there is sufficient concentration in our thought and if our thoughts are of positive (optimistic) there is definite response accordingly from God. This was very well proved in my life. The same concentration and optimistic thought is not there in religious thoughts. Hence most of the religious prayers are only a failure. Those who are religious should increase the concentration and optimistic thoughts in their religious prayers. Then only their religious prayers get materialized as they please. It is all the same whether you pray Rama, Buddha Krishna or Alla or Jesus or Jehova or even an imaginary minor deity, it will work with sufficient concentration and optimistic thought. All your thoughts will reach one central point may be called as supreme God common to all religions.   

      The first poisoning was extremely troublesome. Almost I touched death and came back by scientific meditation luckily. It troubled me for a period of about 36 years of age. It attacked my brain and the connections with brain and my body were shaken. Few hours after my second poisoning I got heavy vomiting and most of the poison has gone out in vomiting. Yet I got heart problem that can be controlled by medicine. Regarding the third poisoning I was alone on that day. Someone as usual brought idly as breakfast in the morning. There was poison in it. I do not know about it. He was not my enemy. It only benefits him if I die. I was alone and attempted to eat it. I lifted my hand to take it. By the time my hand came down mystery happened. I got sudden and heavy shocking fever and my entire taste was changed. I felt I cannot eat it for the present and I thought of eating it later. Probably it was all due to my scientific meditation. Here I did mistake in thinking. I would have analyzed the circumstances in the light of my meditational practice. But I did not do it. After taking medicine for fever and after few hours I attempted to eat it. But due to bad taste I did not swallow it. I have thrown it away and washed my mouth neatly. But the poison was of heavy type. In the night I fell down unconsciously in the bath room. I do not know that how much time I fell down. When I wake up only I understood I fell down. Next few days one of my close relative gave me company as requested by me. No trouble came again as before. Since I am already a heart patient, this poison added support to it and heart problem gradually and slowly increased to a maximum effect. I was forced to be admitted in a hospital finally. Three doctors who examined my angiogram informed my daughter that I will not survive longer and asked her not to waste money and take me back to home. But since I confidently told my daughter based on astrology that I will survive she insisted on surgery. The doctors informed her that it is difficult for me to survive even up to start of surgery and delayed surgery for about 2 hours.  Since I did not die as they expected they started conditional surgery and it became successful. The doctors told my daughter after surgery that I survived because the blood circulation was reversed . They also told her that they have not seen or heard such action of reversal of blood circulation before. Whatever it may be that the three bypass surgery was very successful and I almost comfortable even after10 years after surgery. I attribute everything to my practice of scientific meditation.

     This is a wonderful experience in my life. Such experiences are very rare and reveal some secrets of life. My experience taught me a very great secret of human life as explained in one of the paragraphs as above. Simply speaking our thoughts are connected to God as explained in every religion. Whatever you think strongly with sufficient concentration, it materializes as event. Even for those who believe in their own religion also works when their thought is directed with sufficient concentration.  All religious prayers work as well as scientific meditation with sufficient concentration. This article is also written to bring the secret behind all religious prayers and to bring good cooperation between all religions. Kindly don’t misunderstand me.    

     It gives the impression to me that the baby in mother’s womb is governed by the spiritual body of mother.  The baby has no astral body independently when it was in mother’s womb. But soon the baby is born and when it takes its first breath, the baby gets her own astral body depending on the solar system at the moment of birth of the baby. That is why the events in the life of the baby are governed by the planets position at the birth of the baby and also governed by the progressions and transits of planets over the birth planets. This is a proof to say that her astral body is formed at the time of her 1^st. breath. However some assume that the astral body of the baby was formed when it starts development of the baby in mother’s womb. This is not tallying with the circumstances in the life of the baby. Hence it is more appropriate to assume that the astral body of the baby is formed at the time of her birth soon after taking her first breath only.

     Soul is associated with the body when it is formed in mother’s womb. Soul is not the astral body  It is the principal of life in the body. It is in every part of the body. At the time of death soul is separated from the body and it takes astral body as vehicle and travels into hell or heaven depending on his actions with the physical body. There it will be purified from its past evil actions in the form of suitable sufferings so that they may not be repeated in the next birth. This type of birth and rebirth may be continued for several times (may be about 2000 times) until finally the soul settles down with sufficient purity in astral world. The same process will continue for the soul to reach the causal world where it is fully purified before reaching God to unify with Him. The physical body, astral body and causal body are the media for the soul to travel through them to reach God and unify with Him ultimately.